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Name: Cynthia
Birthday: 11/29/1987


Interests: I love living, writing, thinking deep thoughts, loving God, His Son, nature, art, music, literature, philosophy, outdoor activities(rock-climbing, hiking, swimming...), martial arts, weapons, cultures, languages, chess, card games, board games... and I love movies (ones with good fight scenes are a plus). Movie-making is fascinating...
Expertise: I'm not quite an expert on Martial Arts, but I've been training for basically my whole life.... I'm good at giving advise when advise is needed, and I like just listening to and observing people. I want to be an expert at languages(maybe), smuggling bibles, traveling, and whatever else God wants me to do...


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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

A poem from my blogspot

"All these thoughts"
I can't see around all these thoughts in my head
What's all this inside that's making me feel dead?
Or atleast that my heart is made of hot lead?
So many names and faces inside my head
So many things done, so many things said
I want to get out, squeeze past, scream out loud
I can't breathe, here alone, in this crowd
I'm gasping for air that's really right there
Oh, don't do this now; they're starting to stare
Stop, thia, stop. You're fine. You're at ease
I'm the only one keeping you up. So just please,
Forget all you felt or think that you feel.
I'm making your heart as hard as this steel
No! Don't. I can't take one more breath.
I'm not turning my heart into stone or cold death
It's not a vault to store pain inside
Now let me let go, let go of my pride
I'm broken, don't you see? I don't care anymore
I won't pretend to take this, so let my spirit soar
Let my body fall down, I've broken my crown
If I could drown in tears, then please let me drown
Ofcourse I remember the loves I have born
Ofcourse I remember my heart has been torn
So let it heal. Let it keep its flesh and feel.
I refuse to be as hard as this steel
So cold to the touch, so unbending. I yield.
I yield to all the memories, the pain and heartache.
And remember One once bled and died for my sake.
His heart's been broken more than I could ever bear
And the pain He bore was more than I can share
It's because of Him that I will always care
And feel much more than I would ever dare

(*thia


Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Currently Listening
Who We Are
By Lifehouse
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To you , dear reader

Today at 1:27am
I've decided to begin a new blog, more for myself than anything. I don't expect many people to actually read or comment, but I've tired of being so limited in my updates on facebook, xanga, etc. So this site will be mostly for my poetry, thoughts, and random life-stories (you know, the ones that are very interesting to the writer but probably no one else ). Right. Now I just have to go through all my poetry and start posting some, piece by piece. This should be... interesting. (*the moon
Posted by Thia Lewis

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Currently Listening
Once
By Original Soundtrack
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Use Me

Here's a song I began writing a while back. I'd forgotten about it, and it's unfinished, but it came to mind while I was talking to my friend Michael today...

You've given me a reason to live
You've given me a song to sing
You've given me the grace to give
I am nothing without you
So I give you everything

Use Me. Lord, use me.

I humble myself before your feet
You are the reason I breathe
With you I am complete
Where's the lowest place on earth?
Bury my pride deep beneath

Use Me. Lord, use me.

I am Moses saying I am unworthy
I am Paul saying I am the least of these
I am Solomon crying for your Wisdom
I am David, falling on my knees
And I am Samuel saying Lord send me

Use me, Lord, use me.

You are the alpha and omega
The beginning and the end
You've seen all I've seen
Been everywhere I've been
The galaxies and all the earth
Are at your command
Who am I to question
What you have planned?

Use me. Lord, use me


Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Currently Listening
Who We Are
By Lifehouse
whatever it takes
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Whatever It Takes

 


Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Currently Listening
Elizabethtown - Volume 2
By Various Artists
What're they doing in heaven today?
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There and Back again

 Nothing seems to have changed. It was a blizzard when we left, February 10th, and a blizzard the day we returned, the 18th. If I didn't know better I would think we never left and that the entire trip was a dream. I suppose that's how the Penvensie children felt. It was a good dream, I mean trip.
First we spent a couple of days with Nathan and Janelle (and their tiny frog-like baby, Elizabeth; she's adorable). We had fun. Dawson got hooked on the Hobbit video game. "She's the Man" is actually a lot funnier then I thought it would be... Nathan has some good stories, and Janelle cooks enough to feed an army. Next we found ourselves spending the night at Nathan's twin sister's place. Nicole and her husband Caleb are also fun people, kindred spirits. I can't believe he's actually going to sell his piano! And there we got to play Wii for the first time. Caleb was only too eager to have us line up infront of the screen. Ah... yes, so that was the night we got maybe 3 hours of sleep before continuing on to San Antonio, Texas, where we saw Ryan graduate from bootcamp (airforce)! Sheena's first thoughts were ofcourse how relieved she was that he looks cute with glasses and a shaven head. The airforce base could be called boring but I enjoyed seeing the different trainees and their families interact.
The days spent in Texas were good ones. We saw the Alamo, twice! As well as the river walk, twice. The river walk is amazing, like being in a small piece of Venice, Italy. The food made me homesick for Brasil, as did much of the architecture... It was beautiful. The Alamo was also awesome, especially the grounds- the land around it. I would have been tempted to climb a beautiful, old tree had its branches not been supported by wires. Apparently they'd grown too long for their own good. *smiles.
Never stopped reaching... It was a lovely, old thing. The fish in the moat were gigantic... And there were these black birds who came in flocks at nightfall and perched in all the trees to call at eachother and drown out all other sound. I honestly could not hear the siren of a cop car (police vehicle) just down the block. I really wish I'd acquired a bowie knife, or a flint-lock rifle. No, not to murder the birds. The musicians on the streets were friendly (I liked the banjo guy), as was the Indian family who ran our hotel. In the end Sheena stayed, and Andrew, Dawson, and I embarked on a 21-ish hour drive home. I spent much of the time reading, much as I had on the way down ("Talking to Dragons" then "Howl's Moving Castle"). The entire week- on the road and being with different people- gave me a feeling that we're all connected. And reading Howl's moving Castle the last few days helped feed that feeling. I really love that book. There's purpose to every meeting- every person you come across in life, to every circumstance you find yourself in, to every gift or ability you have, and to every choice made. All the intricate plans and interweaving of fates... I'm glad there's an Author to it all.

Speaking of the Author, He gave us a beautiful sunrise on our way home, but we missed the sunset. Confounded Michigan weather. I know... God is in the snow too. ("God is in the rain"- that quote's for you, Robert). Andrew and I also spotted a shooting star. It made me think of "Stardust" and the last time I watched it, with Sheena, Becca, and Seth in the house Sheena has now deserted. In Brasil it was always a shower of shooting stars... and I miss how they actually looked like twinkling diamonds as they fell instead of hazey streaks of light across the sky. Well, I am home again, and unpacked, which is always the most tragic part for me. Unpacking means I am finished and I don't want to be finished... The kids were ecstatic to see me at work yesterday and today, as were many of the workers, which made me laugh. The moon has decided to eclipse tonight.
The only way I can bare its disappearing and appreciate the beauty of it is knowing it will soon return. As Kahlil Gibran said, "Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." There's a beauty to missing something or someone. "I dream about Your promise to return. And I wake up hangin’ on Your every word. But for now my feet are planted here on earth. So I’m missin’ You. And even while they say that I’m a fool, I know you see me waiting here for You. Oh, and prayin’ that somehow You’ll get here soon. 'Cause I’m missin’ You. How much longer will it be, till I get to see you? Though I know you’re right here with me, tell me when can I be there with you? ...Oh, I’m missin’ You." I know exactly what you mean, Chris Rice... I love you all, and I am finished. (*thia



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